I’m feelin sexy

like a ton of women, I have struggled with my weight. fluctuating number, stretchmarks, stretchmarks on my arms, on my arms!
I got to an alright weight, and then we got pregnant, I got worried about my body, how big it will get and all the extra marks!
I made it to seven months without any extra, and them bam! covered in em’.
My belly was covered in them, my tummy tats went all gnarly, it wasn’t pretty.
To be honest, I was not a fan of pregnancy, I was in pain, and extremely uncomfortable and was not able to be active, not to mention, a midwife from hell.
So after a ridiculous 40 hour natural-ish labor that ended in a c section(i wouldn’t get past 9 cm) olive joins us!
I was so happy to actually be able to walk! and the big belly was gone!
Now that I am flabby, covered in stretchmarks, and have a nice crooked c section scar (doc decided to be a hero and avoid my tattoos, yay, not.) complete with pooch, I have never felt better about myself!
knowing who i am, and who i want to be, a mommy, has helped me confidant in every aspect of my life, including my body.
I know I am not perfect, at all, but i feel sexy, my husband thinks im sexy, and I know my daughter doesn’t give a crap what I look like!
I d finally being confidant.
I wish more mothers would look at themselves, and not see ugly, but see mommy! the things you have gone through are miraculous, the majority of women get marks, the ones that don’t are extremely lucky and love to show it off, that’s why you see it so much, I wish more pictures of postpartum women, showed what the majority look like.
look at yourself and see that this is all part of the journey to be a mom, and there aint nothing wrong with it, embrace it and learn to love it.
I love knowing who i am now and that this body though different and not ideal to others, is part of that!

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